Paramore & YM@6 ♥ ♥

This morning I weighed 137.4 lbs. So not quite a whole pound lost but it's good enough for after only one day of fasting. I weighed just now as well and At 11.37 at night I still weight, 137.4 lbs. Not Bad.

That Paramore concert was tonight. Paramore and You Me At Six were amazing. I was near the front of the crowd. I was being shoved and elbowed from all sides. Trust me, I am in so much pain right now. But it was worth it.

Waiting in the freezing cold for three hours made my legs go stiff though so I was in pain before I even got in there. Then jumping up and down for about four hours. Let hope some calories were burnt in that process :)

They played a mixture of songs from their new album (Brand New Eyes) and some of their old stuff, which I love. And You Me At Six have got a new album coming out in January. Of course I was screaming the words along with the rest :P

I ate today. Doing so well in my fast, then I go and eat 5 small chocolate bars. I hate Mondays as that's when the food shopping is delievered. That's all I ate though all day, so hopefully tomorrow I will be down again.

No more eating until I weigh 134.

The concert was amazing thinspiration though. Hayley Williams is beautfilly skinny and their music attracts all the skinny emo/ scene kids. Exactually who I wish I could be. It's put me in an amazing mood and I'm even more determnined to loose weight.

I had a bath in the middle of blogging so I'm not so hot and sticky anymore thankfully. No school for me tomorrow, I'm spending the day "recovering." Besides. It's Christmas. The work we are doing is minimal anyways...

Through The Times

I appologise in advance, I'm probably going to be blogging more and more during this fasting period. :)

Its 12 (dinner time) and so fat I've survived. My nan has arrived to cook Sunday dinner for us all. The potatoes are my particular weakness. I have a plan though. I'm going to bring my food unstairs, cut it up and flush it down the toilet. That way, there is no evidence that I didn't eat it.

I just need the willpower not to shove the potatoes and gravy down my throat. It shouldn't be to hard, its only day one.

I'm keeping myself occupied by doing the school work thats piled p. Tonight I'm going to exerice for a full hour. Recently I haven't made it that long and I've been stopping at 45 minutes but tonight will be different.

I need to stock up on energy drinks for tomorrow. Going to a concert on no food for two days won't be the best idea so I'm hoping maybe some sugarfree Red Bull will keep me going. It normally does :)

On My Own

I'm doing really bad at the moment. Well, I say really bad. I have a few slip ups. But anything which strays from the plan is a disaster. I had a milkshake today. I Terry's chocolate orange milkshake. Disaster.

Exercised like crazy. Tomorrow is always a new day :)

Lying To Herself

I have exercised for the first time in, forever and now I have a lot of school work to do. Something always has to compromise, but why should that be the case?

At the moment I'm 139 but it's the evening so I better be less in the morning. I'm going to change the scales back to stones because that's what I was using before all this and seeing that 9 stone is so encouraging.

I'm fighting the urge to get a kitkat. I'm going to win. It's simple :)

Travelling Endlessly

Today has not been a good day.

It was going fine at first. I had the motivation I needed to get through the day with no food. Everytime I thought about eating I stopped and thought of the body I would have, the strength i could show and the confidence i am capable of.

How did it go wrong? I had a free lesson forth which is normally when people go in for lunch. Normally I go home during such occasions but my mother had told me I couldn't today because she would be out and she wouldn't give me a key.

I thought fine. I have no money anyway I can't afford food. But of course my friends were worried about me and offered to pay. I kept saying no until I couldn't any longer. I ate half a plate of tuna pasta and it was disasterous from then.

I'll write today off. This isn't going to bring me down. I was 138 this morning and tomorrow I'll make up for today and exercise! Something I never do, simply because I don't have the time. I'll get up early tomorrow and get on my wii fit so an early night for me because I won't be able to get up otherwise. I'm not a very good morning person.

I'm going to keep trying until I reach my goals. I've come so far already, why stop? Yes I'm angry at myself for today. But I've spent my time being angry, scared and upset now I'm ready to face the next day.

Thank you for the comments as well :) I find them really motivating. I'll try comment you guys when I gots some time xxx